One of the reasons I took on the venture to travel across the world was to grow in maturity and discipline. What I didn’t expect to be disciplined on were my emotions. I do believe one needs their emotions to help guide them in life, but I also believe emotions should not dictate or govern your decisions. I am a strong supporter of research, rationale, and logic, as my emotional counterbalance.
In my time away from the ones I’ve grown close with, I realized my ability to invest emotionally into people whom I love. When you invest deep enough, your emotions can become confused and often misguided. This is why rationale is so important. Rationale should serve as your lifeline to help pull you out if you invest too deeply. Investing so heavily however, should never be on a whim or by accident. You must possess enough self-awareness to know when that line needs to be drawn.
Here is where my cautionary tale turns towards the uncovering of this balance. The moment you make a rational decision to invest your emotions past the point your rationale tells you that it’s time to retreat, you better be damn sure you are willing and able to address all the potential repercussions of the impending emotional confusion head on. It must be worth the risk.
Upon my departure, I was internally divided over several relationships in my life, because I had crossed this line. I knew it was time to focus on getting myself back to an emotional equilibrium. But how? For starters, by addressing the fact that I crossed the very line that I shouldn’t have, and admitting my own emotional defeat. Only then would I be able to find the path of return from the error of my ways