Part of any process and progression is sacrifice. I have made some big ones in regards to lifestyle choices concerning finances, family, faith etc. Long story short, I am slowly working on obtaining necessities for the life I am pursuing without going into debt. Ask anyone, not putting anything on credit is a longer road to travel but a beneficial one. As a result, I have an old school mentality to save and then buy. No credit. I know, crazy concept right?
When this position first came across my desk, I was severely lacking the resources to apply for this position. It was extremely frustrating, but I took responsibility for it. The way I saw it was I was the one who put myself in a situation to not be able to obtain this opportunity on my own and I needed to keep focusing on what I was already doing. But my Father, he had other plans. So what did my father do?
My father encouraged me to not give up. See I had been going through a rough patch prior. Going to school full time and trying to publish my first book, I was a bit strapped for cash. Did I mention I don't believe in debt? That means I had no more credit cards and was currently working on trying to pay off all the business debts I had previously acquired. My first car was totaled out by a driver in a truck who fell asleep at the wheel while my car was parked in front of my house. My second car burned out and was not worth the cost for the repairs. Also, with the daily commute from where I lived, there was no real way of making this happen on my own with the resources I currently had available.
My father then stepped in and started making some phone calls to find me a place to stay closer to where I would be working for this gig. I did not know he was doing this. What my father did was a small example of what our heavenly Father has done for us and wants to do for us. We sometimes have to let go and allow for Him to intervene on our behalf and stop thinking we know what’s best at all times. We need to not only focus in on our own abilities, but allow God to move on our behalf through faith. Sometimes the only thing truly in our way is our self.
John 5:19 states: So Jesus explained, "I tell you the truth, the Son can do nothing by himself. He does only what he sees the Father doing. Whatever the Father does, the Son also does.
I cannot do anything on my own, I can only do what God allows and permits. So what can I do? I can and have readjusted and started to focus more on God providing and speaking life over the things I pray for. I am willing to accept responsibility for my decisions, but in doing so I cannot rule out what God can do. I need to not only be thankful for Him being relevant and showing up, but I should expect Him to. My prayers, beliefs and thoughts cannot contradict one another. This is a discipline that requires much practice. This is one lesson I believe I can improve on but never master, and I am okay with that.
Here's an added kicker... Because of my dad trying to bless me, he was able to reap what he sowed. I was blessed with a few tickets to the event I was working and was able to invite him and my mother to attend the show. Everything my father did for me, he did unknowing what potential blessing was waiting for him around the corner.
Talk soon & God bless,